Tracy

Thu, 25 Apr 2002 02:25:47 GMT

My journal will continue at Congju_Tracy

Tue, 23 Apr 2002 21:52:06 GMT

I'm going to start working 40 hours week this whole month of May! Yes! haha That means, money money money money. Oh man, it's going to rule my life now (or at least just May).

Mon, 22 Apr 2002 06:13:55 GMT

People deserve someone like me who would appreciate them for who they are. I deserve people who would appreciate me for who I am.

Mon, 22 Apr 2002 01:55:04 GMT

Walking Away By Craig David

I'm walking away, from the troubles in my life
I'm walking away (yeah) oh, to find a better day
I'm walking away (I'm walking away)
From the troubles in my life
I'm walking away (yeah) oh, to find a better day
I'm walking away

Sometimes some people get me wrong
When it's something I've said or done
Sometimes you feel there is no fun
That's why you turn and run
But now I truly realize
Some people don't wanna compromise
Well, I saw them with my own eyes
Spreading those lies, and
Well, I don't wanna live my life, too many sleepless nights
Not mentioning the fights, I'm sorry to say, lady

I'm walking away, from the troubles in my life
I'm walking away (yeah) oh, to find a better day
I'm walking away (I'm walking away)
From the troubles in my life
I'm walking away (yeah) oh, to find a better day
I'm walking away

Well, I'm so tired, baby
Things you say, you're driving me away
Whispers in the powder room, baby
Don't listen to the games they play
Girl, I thought you'd realize
I'm not like them other guys
Coz I saw them with my own eyes
You should've been more wise, and
Well, I don't wanna live my life, too many sleepless nights
Not mentioning the fights, I'm sorry to say, lady

I'm walking away (now I'm walking away)
From the troubles in my life (from the troubles in my life)
I'm walking away (yeah) oh, to find a better day
I'm walking away (I'm walking away)
From the troubles in my life (troubles in my life)
I'm walking away (yeah) (I'm walking away)
Oh, to find a better day

I'm walking away (I'm walking away)
From the troubles in my life (I've tried to solve you, baby)
I'm walking away (oh, yeah) (oh, yeah)
Oh, to find a better day
(Oh, I'm gon, I'm gonna find a better day)
I'm walking away (oh, yeah)
From the troubles in my life
(From the troubles in my life, baby)
I'm walking away (yeah) oh, to find a better day
I'm walking away

Sat, 20 Apr 2002 21:39:51 GMT

I just told something I shouldn't have said. Errrr....

Thu, 18 Apr 2002 17:23:24 GMT

I just realized something.

My postings have been so depressing, hehe. I promise I'll cheer up a bit. Only time will heal.

I haven't been feeling like typing much in my journal about what's been going on lately. There's just so much that I don't know where to start and when to end. So, I just end up writing random "poetry", hehe. Oh well.

Hope life is treating you all well. Ciao...

Thu, 18 Apr 2002 14:22:33 GMT

When you talk to someone and ask how they are doing, aren't they supposed to ask the same in return? Well, some people don't and that's rude and it shows they don't care about you.

Thu, 18 Apr 2002 06:24:35 GMT

People disguise themselves.
How can I know the real person?

When I trust people.
They turn their backs.

They take what I can give,
and they just walk away.
While I stay back, broken.

What can I do?
Absolutely nothing.

All I can do is keep trusting,
and keep being hurting.

I'll wait till I can find someone.
Someone who will respect me,
and someone I can respect.

Mon, 15 Apr 2002 05:04:06 GMT

Why Trust? It's not worth risking. I've risked and trusted so many times, and I always end up empty handed. I can't keep doing this anymore.

Do You Know What I Want?

Mon, 15 Apr 2002 05:03:45 GMT

I want to experience the goodness of life.
I want to believe in the existence of love.
I want to know that I am needed.
I want to hold a hand of a man who loves me.
I want to be able to make my own decisions.
I want to travel around the world.
I want my parents to be proud of me.
I want to make an impact in someone's life.
I want to be a good friend.
I want to believe that I have a purpose for living.

Mon, 15 Apr 2002 01:34:18 GMT

They live,
I die.

They are strong,
I fall.

They are fearless,
I run away.

They experience God's gifts,
I feel worthless.

Will this ever change?

Fri, 12 Apr 2002 15:27:42 GMT

Warning: If you are going to tease me about what I type here, then no more juicy stuff! hehe Only kidding. =) Like I do have anything interesting to say. Anywho.

Today, Im going to have a long day. First class, then work, then meeting with a group for my business communications project, and I have no idea how long that will last tonight.

Wed, 10 Apr 2002 03:08:59 GMT

I took both my Chemistry and Accounting tests today. Ugh. ::sigh:: I know I did well in Chemistry, but Accounting is a little iffy.

I am so tired I can fall asleep right now. But I just keep telling myself that I should stay up for a little while longer. =)

Oh well... I shall stay up...

Mon, 08 Apr 2002 06:06:09 GMT

My mom thinks we don't know, but I know it happened again. When will this ever stop?

Mon, 08 Apr 2002 05:59:36 GMT

Can we all say I LOVE ACCOUNTING! Umm, yeah...

Well anyways, Brad called me Saturday and he wanted to hang out and just see a movie. I told him I had to study and I don't know when I'll be back to at least see a late movie. I didn't come back till late and I didn't call him back to say Im sorry. Should I have? I don't know. I feel bad, but it's all good, I suppose.

Thanks to Accounting, I've been missing calls from a guy I've been talking to for about a week and a half now. He tried calling me Saturday and Sunday and I wasn't home both times. ::sigh:: I'm sorry...

Sat, 06 Apr 2002 20:06:32 GMT

I liked it when he whispered to me...

Sat, 06 Apr 2002 03:38:21 GMT

I was sitting in the bus on my way home from school on the UT shuttle while this guy (who happened to be kind of cute) keeps looking my way. I didn't really seem to mind, except for the fact that I get bashful every time we made eye contact. Well, when my stop came, I walked past him and he said "goodbye sugar". I just kept walking and got off the bus. As the bus passed me by, he kept looking out the window staring at me.

Thu, 04 Apr 2002 23:27:49 GMT

I've been talking to a guy for a little bit now, and it seems hard for me to open up to him. I mean, we have harmless conversations, and Im having a hard time time saying just whatever is on my mind. I want to open up and let him know what Im about. I never had this kind of problem before until now. I don't know why and I want to figure out why. He seems like a really great guy and its just a shame. But anywho...

Im so tired and I don't understand why I've been getting up so early in the morning after 3-4 hours of sleep. It sucks and I feel really sick.

Gotta go....

Wed, 03 Apr 2002 06:00:51 GMT

All I can say is:

IM TIRED!

Mon, 01 Apr 2002 02:59:38 GMT

Happy Easter!

I just went to church today. It was really crowded, more than usual. I guess people decided that they only have to go to church twice a year, Easter and Christmas.

I didn't do anything else. Just chilled. Well, my best friend called me today. That was nice, always making me laugh when I'm down. =) Gotta love that girl. It was a nice "catch up". I kept hanging up the phone because my cheek always presses against the key and she keeps hanging up the phone cause her cell phone battery was low. haha.

Well, don't feel like typing much today. Till then, take care. Ciao...

P.S. Beware, tomorrow is April Fools Day. =)

Sun, 31 Mar 2002 06:06:48 GMT

I can't believe this, I had about 5 hours sleep last night and I am still up! What's going on here....

Today's Theme: SEX

Sun, 31 Mar 2002 05:38:54 GMT

I was talking to this girl today, she's 15 years old and she was asking me for advice. Advice I couldn't give. She's 15 years old and her boyfriend, who's 20, wants to have sex with her. I was shocked and right away I told her, "NO! You can't have sex with him. You're too young."

The reason why she wants to have sex with him is because she wants him to stay with her. She has no friends and he's the only one who hangs out with her. I told her there's a lot of people who would love to be her friend and who will respect her, unlike this creep. She tells me later that she told him no, she can't have sex with him, and he's not her boyfriend anymore. Now, she really wants me to be her friend and I agreed to be one for her. I just feel really bad that she has to beg people to be her friend (not saying she had to beg me).

What I also can't believe is how far guys would go to have phone sex with you. I mean, c'mon, I have a guy stalking me on AIM to have phone sex with me. This is insane. Constantly I say, no, I can't, no, I can't, etc. But he keeps begging saying that he must be a loser, he has no friends, etc. Trying to make me feel bad for him or something. Geez...C'mon now. Whatever...

*o*d*v*e*6: guess i'm a bigger loser then
MissEdieModulate: errr...
MissEdieModulate: don't bring that up...you're not a loser
*o*d*v*e*6: sure i am. i mean you said no to me

*o*d*v*e*6: i feel bad for myself

*o*d*v*e*6: i'm already touching myself babe. just need to hear ur voice

*o*d*v*e*6: pleaseee. i'm so horny
*o*d*v*e*6: just a phone call that's it
*o*d*v*e*6: pretty please.

*o*d*v*e*6: how about you just listen to me
*o*d*v*e*6: no need for you to act on them
*o*d*v*e*6: pllleasssseeeee

etc.....Insane but entertaining, he he! Where do I meet these kind of people, I have no idea. Maybe I should have restrictions on my AIM now...err...

Sun, 31 Mar 2002 01:11:50 GMT

Why do people hide things behind your back? I know they are but I fear to ask them why. I fear what they might say. I don't want to face the reality that might break me inside. What did I do wrong to deserve this? I pray...

Sat, 30 Mar 2002 23:36:39 GMT

Why does food make me happy? ::ponder::

Sat, 30 Mar 2002 03:11:10 GMT

Motto of the Day:

Never jog on a hot humid day at the lake.